Life is a Journey

I have come to this page many times. Over and over again I've tried to write a post, any post for that matter. But...I never get more than a few sentences in. I have no motivation. Writing used to be such a big part of my life, but lately I haven't done anything of the sort. Me writing hasn't stopped entirely, it just takes different forms now. In my journaling and in my art and in some social media posts. But certainly I haven't been writing as much as I once was. It was bothering me so much for so long. Then I realized that life consists of changes. There are many different stages of life that we walk through. Maybe I should worry less about not doing something and more on what do I need to be doing right here and now.

What should I being doing right now? I'm not entirely sure. I know that I always have the desire to DO something. To make a difference. To have an impact. To change people's lives. One of my biggest fears is living my life without ever doing anything meaningful. I don't want to waste the life that God has given me. But in the hurry to reach that undefinable "something," I find myself missing out on the life that is unfolding around me. Not just that, but I'm missing out on my own life. I'm not enjoying the journey. I am not happy with where I am right now.

There will always be goals to strive towards. There will always be something to run after. Those goals, those things aren't everything. More than half of it is the journey that it takes to get there. The experiences that one has. The growth that happens. The things that on learns.  The hard work that is put in. All the tears, the laughs that happen. The relationships that are made. All these things make up a huge part of doing something or reaching a goal. None of these things should be considered meaningless. They all play a part in making you who you are.

Time is constantly moving. It never stops. Not for you. Not for anyone. Time is always moving forward. But this doesn't mean that we should rush towards the goals or that "something." No. We should realize that life is going to move forward whether we want it to or not. So what's the rush? It is all happening on God's time. There's definitely the urge to move, that's a good thing, but we certainly don't have to rush. Be present where you are. That's something I'm trying hard to learn.

So much has been happening in my life lately. Some big changes are possibly coming up if everything goes smoothly. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I think I'm making the right decisions, but who will really know? I don't know the future. The idea scares me. Lately, I feel like I have more questions than answers. It is frustrating sometimes. But even that is progress. You have to have questions in order to be able to answer them. You can't have answers without questions. I'm going to continue to move forward, forward in the belief that God is in control. The best thing that I can do is take things one step at a time and be present where I am. Life is a journey. There will be good times. There will be bad times. But such is life. That shouldn't stop one from enjoying it when possible and living to the fullest.

G. Paige

God's Grace through the Challenges

It's been so long since I last posted. It feels like a lifetime ago. My life has been constantly changing ever since the beginning of last year. I don't think there's been much of anything that's been a real constant in my life. In many ways, it has been wonderful. I've ventured out of my comfort zone. I've done so many things that I've never done before. It's been a constant challenge...and honestly, it's been pretty rewarding. I've learned a lot. That's not to say that it has been easy. There's been challenges that have been really tough. Ones that I don't understand why I have to deal with.

I'm not here to talk about all the problems in my life. Everyone deals with challenges. Everyone has issues that they have to deal with. It's a part of life. Whether these hardships change overtime or one disappears in order for another one to appear, I think that we can all agree that challenges are a part of everyday life. Sin entered this world and hardships are now something that we have to constantly deal with.

In the face of that, life seems kind of daunting, doesn't it? I feel you. I really do. In all honestly, life hasn't been the easiest this fall/winter. There's been times when I've lost sight of the goals in front of me. I've forgotten or abandoned the purpose that God has given me. And I wonder why I'm even here. What's the point of all of this? It's awful. I feel ashamed, but you know what? I'm saved. I'm saved by grace. I don't have to be ashamed because God's grace covers all my faults. His forgiveness sets me free. Why am I telling you this? I want you to know me for who I am. I'm a broken human being. I'm sinful. I have my faults. I'm not perfect.

We all deal with different kinds of challenges and hardships. What's important is that you are not alone during those hard times. You are not on your own. God, who's greater than you and any of the problems that you may be going through, is always with you. Even more so (this is something that I've been realizing a lot lately) God will bring certain people into your just at the time when you need them. He has done that a lot for me lately. There are so many people that came into my life just when I needed them. They are such a blessing and they don't even know it. I have so much to be thankful for.

This just goes to show that you may be a blessing in someone else's life without even knowing it. Someone may be going through a really rough point in their life and your words may be just what they need to hear. You never know. So be kind. Show the grace and love that God has shown you. Such things can go a long way. You may never know how much of a difference you're making in other people's lives. Be the light that you want to see in this broken world. Hold on tightly to the relationships you have. They are more precious and rare that any jewel that can be found on this earth.

G Paige